kalah? hoho tidak tidak

5 09 2008

apakah anda merasa senang saat bisa membalas orang lain?? ya ya ya, pasti rasanya memuaskan. tapi tahukah anda bahwa ternyata karma itu berlaku?? ya ya ya, karma eksis!

memang, saya sudah terkena karma. tapi, nggak ada niat buat ngebales lagi tuh. ya kalo dia nya yg mau ngebales, ya nikmati aja karmanya. hehe. apalagi saya sudah nggak ada hubungannya lagi sama hal2 yg dia lakuin. sungguh sangat tidak penting bukan!? mengingat karma itu ada, jadi saya berharap karma yg nanti masih akan datang ke saya adalah karma yang baik. Amiiin..

tapi susahnya lagi, karma ini nggak kenal waktu, gak kenal orang. kalo uda kena, ya kena aja. sering kali nganggep bahwa yg kita lakuin adalah bener, tapi ternyata karma nya jelek, berarti yg salah siapa??

hmm.. sebenernya gak penting juga sih ngomongin karma gajelas gini. yowislah gapapa. FYI, karma does exist!


meadows of heaven

17 08 2008

I close my eyes, the lantern dies
The scent of awakening, wild honey and dew
Childhood games, woods and lakes
Streams of silver, toys of olden days

Flowers of wonder and of hidden treasures
In the meadow of life, my acre of Heaven
A five-year-old winter heart in a place called home
Sailing the waves of past

Rocking chair without a dreamer
A wood and a spring without laughter?
Sandbox without toy soldiers
Yuletide without the flight
Dream down for her

Flowers wither, treasures stay hidden
Until I see the first star-fall
I fall asleep and see it all
Mother’s care and colour of the kites

when i wrote this..

heart of doom

15 08 2008

it takes time when i gotta heal myself from pain. and i can deal with it.

but when it comes time to heal myself for the future, how could i possibly deal with it?

it’s gonna happen when it’s supposed to happen.

doom.. reality over me. and this bizzare love circle, could it possibly last? then i should take my time. to clear it all. cleaning my brain. why do all those people said reality?? i don’t like reality! it’s never been good. it’s always as bad as usual. and brings me to my vulnerable side.

but it can only make me stronger than ever. to learn and to fall. to run from the edge. again, love saved me. to encourage each other. to be at one and another heart.. to be hugged like it’s the first time.. to be loved like there’s no one else. it can only make me stronger than yesterday.

tho promise never meant to stay forever, but it stays in heart for forever. and sweet things i knew, was when he said sweet words. again and again, love saved me from my enrage..

so far away, i wish you were here. with you by my side, i’ll fight and defend!

bad wednesday

13 08 2008

huff.. udah udaaah. semuanya nyebelin hari ini. mana gw kangen pula ma dia. dia kmana siih?? sibuk yah? ato ngapain?

PS: what if he knows? wait, does he knows??

mungkin aku salah.. tapi.. apa iya? ah, mungkin aku bener.. tapi.. apa iya? inilah susahnya hidup di era modern. susah ada orang yg bener2 dipercaya. once you loved someone, love will betray you. or maybe that person, himself. i couldn’t believe.. i was overwhelmed with glory, victory, happiness when i’m with him.. but nowadays, i don’t know where i could find him.

lost in my own heart. desperate in my own trust. believe him or not? his words taste so sweet. i would like to taste that kind of sweetness again. but then comes the reality. the bitter one. very bitter.

well, shit happens all the time.

deliver me

25 07 2008

deliver me.. out of my sadness..

all of my life, i was in hiding.

when he passes me by, he’s a ray of light.

like the first drop of sun from the sky..

and i knows he’s a king who deserves a queen

but i’m not a queen..

and he doesn’t see me..

when he dances, he moves him to a smile

and i see everything in him shine

there’s a grace in his ways that i can’t contain.

i haven’t that grace, oh i haven’t that grace..

there are the things we can change if we just choose to fight. but the walls of injustice are high.

when he passes me by, he’s a ray of light.

like the first drop of sun from the sky.

and i knows he’s a king who deserves a queen

someone other than me.. so different from me..

great start for great FUTURE

23 07 2008

emang bener kata pepatah, kita yang menabur kita pula yang menuai. nah, gw lagi belajar keras neh biar dapet masa depan cerah. bright future coming ahead.

btw, i am starting to study hard from now on. i must liking the subjects. that’s the key of my success. well, if i can be classified as success. hehe. however, there must be some problem in that subject. well, i can say that. but i can and i would risks all my great time now, just to have great time later. when we have fun now, we won’t having fun in the end. so, that’s why i sacrificing my great time, happy hour and playong hour and exchange it with study time. it’s ok. i have lots of dreams, ya know!

well, point is, i’m opening my new page of life. and fill it with good things.

*for MOM: wish me luck, mom. i’m working hard to get to this. need ur prayer.

*for DAD: daddy.. just gimme the lessons i need, and teacher i need. i’ll giving u my bestest.

*for ALL: wish me all the luck in the world to get me through this tough year. ok. GBU. lov ya ol.


17 07 2008

House? need one? yea yeaa.. hari ini gak terlalu membosankan kelasnya. bercanda canda bertiga ngecengin obel. khu phau ching. wuahahahaahhaha. obess obess. bas betot. hahahaha.

aaahh.. new week but test is coming! what the hell??? it’s the bad part being in science program. huh. tapi guru mat nya enaak juga. haha. lucu bgt! mukanya kocak! kalo senyum gede banget. bercanda aja kerjanya.

hmm.. gmn ya,, gak ada yg mau diceritain sih.. jadinya ya.. yaudah deh.

adios amigos!