meadows of heaven

17 08 2008

I close my eyes, the lantern dies
The scent of awakening, wild honey and dew
Childhood games, woods and lakes
Streams of silver, toys of olden days

Flowers of wonder and of hidden treasures
In the meadow of life, my acre of Heaven
A five-year-old winter heart in a place called home
Sailing the waves of past

Rocking chair without a dreamer
A wood and a spring without laughter?
Sandbox without toy soldiers
Yuletide without the flight
Dream down for her

Flowers wither, treasures stay hidden
Until I see the first star-fall
I fall asleep and see it all
Mother’s care and colour of the kites

when i wrote this..





heart of doom

15 08 2008

it takes time when i gotta heal myself from pain. and i can deal with it.

but when it comes time to heal myself for the future, how could i possibly deal with it?

it’s gonna happen when it’s supposed to happen.

doom.. reality over me. and this bizzare love circle, could it possibly last? then i should take my time. to clear it all. cleaning my brain. why do all those people said reality?? i don’t like reality! it’s never been good. it’s always as bad as usual. and brings me to my vulnerable side.

but it can only make me stronger than ever. to learn and to fall. to run from the edge. again, love saved me. to encourage each other. to be at one and another heart.. to be hugged like it’s the first time.. to be loved like there’s no one else. it can only make me stronger than yesterday.

tho promise never meant to stay forever, but it stays in heart for forever. and sweet things i knew, was when he said sweet words. again and again, love saved me from my enrage..

so far away, i wish you were here. with you by my side, i’ll fight and defend!





bad wednesday

13 08 2008

huff.. udah udaaah. semuanya nyebelin hari ini. mana gw kangen pula ma dia. dia kmana siih?? sibuk yah? ato ngapain?

PS: what if he knows? wait, does he knows??

mungkin aku salah.. tapi.. apa iya? ah, mungkin aku bener.. tapi.. apa iya? inilah susahnya hidup di era modern. susah ada orang yg bener2 dipercaya. once you loved someone, love will betray you. or maybe that person, himself. i couldn’t believe.. i was overwhelmed with glory, victory, happiness when i’m with him.. but nowadays, i don’t know where i could find him.

lost in my own heart. desperate in my own trust. believe him or not? his words taste so sweet. i would like to taste that kind of sweetness again. but then comes the reality. the bitter one. very bitter.

well, shit happens all the time.